Tonight I came home to an unexpected email. Someone found this blog because they were googling one of my favorite theologians (brownie points to whoever can guess who Im talking about). This week has been really good. As I wrote about earlier, I got to hang with an amazing woman named Hannah, I had lunch today with another awesome woman named Becky, and I got to see a TON of joyful things going on in the lives of people around me. I am getting to see the Lord work great merciful things in the lives of my loved ones. I have had some incredible conversations this week. And I have learned a lot about myself, my limitations, and how God's grace covers me even when I desire things outside of Him.
I've been working through some things these past few weeks, but today as I walked around downtown Seoul doing some shopping, I popped in my ipod to listen to some worship music. I was overwhelmed with peace. I have no clue what my future holds, and in some ways I'm not sure I even really understand where I am now, but I have learned to have peace and joy in all these moments. I need not worry about my future. As Becky pointed out today, Jesus knows me better than I even know myself. I think I know all these things that would make me happy, but I have to trust that God knows my heart better than that. If He is withholding, it is good. I will trust Him.
For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.
He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God.
Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. Selah