Friday, May 29, 2009

Birthday Prayer

So today is my birthday.

Yay!

I spent this past week on a roadtrip with my dad and sister. (I will post photos later.) We went upstate to where my dad grew up and then back down to Manhattan for some city life, and finally down to Philly for my graduation from Westminster Theological Seminary. The past two days have been so sweet. Being with this group of people that have meant so much to me over the last two years, reflecting on our time together and how much we have all changed and celebrating this great ending of our time here. From the banquet Wednesday, to going with the old gang to Union Jacks for one last beer, to the actual graduation ceremony, it was a great way to close my two years here. After graduation, my dad, grandma, and sister and I went out to dinner. And then I ended the night with wine and ice cream with my dear friend Hannah Kang. We talked just past midnight, right into my birthday! It was perfect. I am so blessed with amazing friends and while Philadelphia itself doesn't really appeal to me, I am moving back to some amazing people. Today my family and I are driving down to Washington DC to spend some more time with my grandma.
My birthday wish comes from something Hannah and I talked about last night...
I shared with her that my prayer is that God would do His will in my heart. Being in a relationship is a much bigger change in life and ministry than I ever expected. And there are so many fears and insecurities that can pop up. My prayer is that God would do His will in my heart that I might be able to truly worship Him. I have realized how easily I can get distracted from worshiping, even with good things. So I pray that God would do His will in my heart, that I might worship Him, and that my love for other things in life would be fruit of that worship. Lord, may You be glorified in this life You have given me, in the education You have afforded me, in all of the friendships You have bestowed upon me, and in my relationship with Jason. May You receive all the glory, honor, and laud. Thank you for the last 26 years, I have seen you walk beside me along this road thus far, and I trust that You are by my side today.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Lovely Ladies of Thursday Mornings

This posting is dedicated to the lovely ladies I have been blessed to know this year. Every thursday morning, at 7am, a group of young women gather together over coffee and bagels to talk, laugh, cry, and study God's word. It has been one of the most amazing experiences ever to have these women in my life. In this group I have experienced such love and honesty. THese ladies truly love and care for each other and are committed to loving each other throughout the week. We pray for each other, we are honest with each other about the ups and downs that we experience each week. I am heartbroken to be leaving them, but am confident that we will see each other again.

Ladies, just thinking about you and your love brings tears to my eyes. You have been such an enouragement to me. I can't express to you how deeply your friendships have touched me and I am forever changed by our little community. God bless, my sisters!










Wednesday, May 20, 2009

some photos from my last Sunday at church


Karen, Enoch, and bagels... can you ask for more?





Carrie!





Miss Diana, who I have known since high school!







I will miss these good friends!!!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

to tattoo or not to tattoo

As some of you know, I've wanted a tattoo for quite some time now. I made a rule (because I love rules!) when I was in college that if I were to get a tattoo, I had to draw it out and keep it for a year before I could get it. So almost 2 years ago in India, I drew out a design that I have sat on now for quite some time. I don't have the details down yet, but I think my time is getting close. I think I might make my tattoo my graduation gift. But I'm not sure yet.
Anyways, here is a fun blog about tattoos:
http://tattoo-talk.blogspot.com/

and another blog about a guys tattoo and the decision behind the design (very cool!)
http://jhagerman.blogspot.com/2008/01/new-tattoo.html

Some time soon I will post more about what I am looking at for my tattoo.

Packing

I'm not sure how many times in the last 5 years I have moved, but the number is out of control. Every year in college I moved. And since college not only have I moved from apartment to apartment, but from country to country. I've lived on 4 different continents in the last 3 years and the longest stretch I've had in any living situation was last year in Glenside with Liz. (By the way, I think this is one of the big differences between Jason and I: my life is a lot of instability and he is all stablity!)
So, after 6 months here in New York, I am packing up my things to move back to Philly. I won't move for another week, and I really don't own much, so why am I starting so early? Well, I love packing. It is probably one of my favorite things to do. I like getting all my stuff organized, and getting rid of the extra stuff I don't need. And I love seeing how little I own. I'm not sure why, but I love the feeling of being able to hold all that I own on my back. I think these days of minimalism are coming to an end. I think the season of life I am entering will involve owning more things than I ever have before. I might even own some furniture some day.
I say this all with a smile on my face.
For now though, I will enjoy this time of packing. I will enjoy being able to fit all of my things in a van. In the past, the lack of stability in my life has made me stay away from places like IKEA, places where I might go and want to bring home things that can't fit in my backpack. This season though, I think I might allow myself to wander IKEA, to consider buying things for the home. Maybe even some furniture. <3

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

A Beautiful Mess

(A Jason Mraz song that caught my attention today... especially as I was reflecting on love and how it is that God can bring two sinners together, to love each other, hurt each other, to dwell together in this thing that really can best be described as "a beautiful mess")


You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are
Although you were biased
I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess, yes it is
It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And the kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are,
Here we are
Here we are
We're still here

What a beautiful mess, this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is "Yes"
Through, timeless words and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds not of this earth
And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we, tore our dresses and stained our shirts
But its nice today.
Oh the way it was so worth it.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Some photos of awesomeness

This month has been an amazing month! Here are some photos of the awesomeness that I have lived through this past month....


Katie, Myself, and John with our amazing pieces of art.



Hannah and Sonja from Bible Study






I love the inside of this church





Flowers from a certain someone... :)




Katie and I in the Park.







Tuesday, May 05, 2009

"Yours,"

So I have never put much thought into how I sign off letters (emails really). But about a month ago I wrote probably one of the most important letters of my life. It was an email to Jason, and I needed it to be perfect. I will always remember the moment because I was sitting at my desk, I had just spent days on edge, going crazy, wanting to say so much to Jason, but needing to say just a little. And I wrote out a letter, an honest, heart felt letter. And when I got to the end of it, I paused. How do you sign such a letter? Do you sign it with "love,"? That seems generic and sterile. How about "sincerely,"? Um, bor-ing! After debating for a while. I asked a friend, who gave probably one of the funniest answers to the dilemna: to sign off "Rebecca Peterson" !!! After almost peeing in my pants from laughter, I finally settled on "prayerfully,". It was probably the most honest way to sign off, not too corny, but not too generic. Just true.
So since then, Jason and I have written a few emails or facebook messages back and forth. And the other day, after a long day, where I think both Jason and I were tired and stressed from all the craziness going on in our individual lives, he wrote me a letter. After an hour on the phone, he wrote a letter. The letter was sweet. Very sweet, but the part of the letter that stayed with me through the whole night, was how he signed it. At the bottom of the letter, he signed off "yours,". (I'm pretty sure I had signed off a letter to him like this in the previous week, but the effect was not lost on me all the same!)
Even now, it makes me pause. What dearest emotion could this be in the pit of my stomach. It is not the butterflies that came with crushes in middle school. It is a deep joy that sits in the bottom on my heart, it makes me catch my breath. "yours," Wow, now that is romantic!