Saturday, April 19, 2008

(Note: I am totally procrastinating right now. I have SO much work to get done this weekend but that's okay. My priorities are a little out of wack. Whatever!)

I haven't written for a while. Between schoolwork, real work, and just life in general, I haven't had much time for writing down any reflections. But today I am taking a minute to share a thought that is bringing me confort today.
Last weekend I met my dad down in Washington DC. My grandparents live there and my grandpa is not doing too well. The doctors say he probably doesn't have much time left. I have had a special relationship with my grandparents for a while now. I am the first girl to be born in the Lipkowitz family for three generations. When I was little I didnt really get my grandparents. THey lived on the other coast and when we went to visit them it was fun but not necessarily intimate. When I was 16 something changed. I went to visit my grandparents by myself. I found out that my grandma is pretty cool. My grandpa, silent and strong, also found a special place in my heart. Since then, I have gone to visit them by myself quite a few times and over the years have grown pretty close to them.
So this weekend, standing next to my grandpa's bed where he is growing closer and closer to death by the day, I couldn't stop the tears streaming down my cheeks. I rested my hand on his head and prayed that he would feel my touch and know it was me telling him that I loved him. I might not see him ever again. As my dad and I drove away, I couldn't face my dad for fear that my eyes would begin to pour out and I wouldn't be able to stop the river of tears that I was fighting.
I thought, what hope do I have? Is there any comfort for this pain? Death is very painful, for those who die and for those who are left behind. My mind rested on 2 Cor 1:3-4.
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted.
I have found solace in these verses countless times in the past. I have been thinking about it recently though. What does it mean that God is a God of comfort? I have been playing around with these thoughts and today as I was reading the passage it hit me: God can comfort us because he experienced the pain we experience. He is not a distant God. The effects of sin (of which death is one of the saddest) are not foreign to Him. He came down here and subjected Himself to the pain and suffering of mankind. His comfort is one of familiarity and yet victory.
Too often I focus on His victory- the fact that He overcame sin and death and offers us new life. But I forget that He actually went through this world, He felt personally the pain that this world forces upon us. He is no stranger. Indeed, He knows our sorrows.
This incredible truth brings more tears to my eyes as I realize that I can rest in Him, even in my pain, I can feel pain as I rest in His promises. Pain is just one more reminder of His glory. We are so far from it. There is comfort in Him.

Friday, April 11, 2008


Spring is here.

Just as winter was a whole new experience for me, springtime is filling me with wonder.
This week, out of nowhere, there are flowers on the trees, daffodils in front of the houses, and robins flying around. I have taking walks and listening to The Village Church sermons on my ipod. After my walk today I laid out in the yard and just enjoyed the gorgeous day.
I miss California. I miss the sun. The light cool wind that blows through the trees offering refreshment from the heat.
But I will admit, I am liking this whole "springtime" thing. Thank God for spring.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

WTS and football

Here we are playing football. Well, not playing football, more like tossing the ball around. Don't we look like the normal seminary students?

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Last of the Mohicans

I love this movie.

There are some movies that so pull on your heart and this is one of them. I find myself lost in the story. Man, I am such a girl sometimes. In the movie, there is this one scene where the main character played by Daniel Day-Lewis is going to leave the woman he loves so he might save her in the end. The looks they exchange before he leaves are priceless. So much passion and trust, fear and love. Sigh.

"To know your name"

This is a song we sang in church this morning. May the words bless you as they did me this morning.

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems
Forgiven I’m alive, restored set free
Your Majesty resides inside of me
Forever I believe
Forever I believe

Arrested by Your truth and righteousness
Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness
Convicted by Your Spirit
Led by Your Word
Your love will never fail
Your love will never fail

I know You gaveThe world
Your Only Son for us
To know Your name
To live within the Saviour’s love
He took my place
Knowing He’d be crucified
And You loved
You loved
A people undeserving

‘Cause I know You gave
The world Your Only Son for us
To know Your name
To live within the Saviour’s love
And He took my place
Knowing He’d be crucified
And You lovedYou loved
A people undeserving

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Cast your eyes upon He who reigns

I know I have alluded to the painful situation that we are going through here at wts, and really I should at some point I should actually share with you all what is going on. But before I write that blog, I have to write this blog. It is a confession. In the pain, in the sadness, in the confusion that has overcome our beloved school, I have taken my eyes off of Christ and found them fixed on the depravity of man. I realized this last night in class when the professor was reading a passage from the Bible that was supposed to comfort us and instead of listening, I chose to check my email to see if there was an update on the situation. Bad Becka, bad. I have been praying about the situation the whole way through, but my prayers feel more like desperate cries than confident appeals to a God who IS in control. Lord, forgive me for my unfaithfulness. Forgive my doubt and help me live today in light of Your reign and glory.