Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I know its been a while since I posted anything. It is not due to any bad turn of events in my life, but on the contrary, life has been good. I am still struggling in various ways with Korean life (like their fierce and vocal judgment of anyone over a size 2 and the way they walk ridiculously slowly down the streets). But I am actually doing really well. I really appreciate my church. It’s not perfect, and I know that. But I really like it. I’ve never been a member of a church this charismatic. They aren’t speaking in tongues from the pulpit or anything, but the way the pastor talk about prayer, or even visions would probably make some of my Westminster buddies uncomfortable. But honestly, I need it. I am so thirsty for the God’s work in my heart, in my life, that I gladly welcome a strong faith in the power of the Holy Spirit in our lives today. Not that my reformed buddies don’t believe in the power of the Holy Spirit, but that too often the power that we so adamantly declare on paper is not given a prominent place in our daily lives. I am above all guilty of this. While my doctrinal theology of prayer is good (or at least I think so!) it hasn’t infiltrated my life. Do I pray like I can move mountains? Does the Holy Spirit’s intimacy fill me with wondrous chills when I approach the throne of God Almighty? When life’s ups and downs come, do I turn to the fountain of Wisdom for counsel? I confess here that I have a weak view of God. I have a weak view of His power. Of who He is. Of what He is doing. Lord forgive my unbelief!