Thursday, September 11, 2008

Journal

Here is a journal entry I had to do for my Human Personality class. It was supposed to be an entry on my ideas of who I am, of my anthropology, and how union with Christ might affect that.

I tend to be reflective. I tend to wonder how others are seeing me and I imagine what I might look like to the outside world. But when I am honest with myself, I think I have a better idea of how others view me than I do of who I really am. I cognitively know the theology of who I am. I am created in God’s image, fallen, chosen for faith and Life in Christ Jesus. But what does that really all mean? I don’t think that cognitive knowledge affects my true understanding of who I am. Yesterday was a bad day. It started out stressful and half way through I found myself on the verge of tears from a confrontation with a friend who hadn’t been treating me well and yesterday was the last straw. And today I wake up and feel like yesterday is miles away and yet its not and I still need to deal with the stressful situations and the confronted friend. So I woke up early to do my devotions. I know the Word of God holds life for me and yet it’s the last place I go. I read Spurgeon’s Morning devotion and was reminded of the conversation we have in Human Personality on our union with Christ. Back to who I am: I am in Christ. But once again, so what? How does that actually manifest itself in my life?
Let’s take a moment and look at Ephesians. The book opens up with blessings for those who are found in Christ. Being in Christ means receiving every spiritual blessing from above. It means being chosen to be holy and blameless before God. This is me. Whether or not I live up to the calling I have received, this is who I am. For I am in Christ. Paul goes on to tell the Ephesians that he prays for them, that they may have wisdom and deeper knowledge of Christ and the calling to which they have been called. You see, I am not the only one who is in Christ and yet doesn’t remember or live up to the calling that He has blessed us with. I am just like the Ephesians, for I am in Christ. And Paul continues in his encouragement with a reminder that the God who calls us, also empowers us. And His power is strong enough to raise Christ from the dead and seat Him at the right hand in the heavenly places. Amazing. I am in Christ.

2 comments:

Alison said...

who is this friend bringing you to the verge of tears!?!?!? I'll knock him/her out!! I'm takin names Beck, takin names!!!

MISS YOU!!!! and keep that head up my friend!

xoxoxoxo

Anonymous said...

I always love Ali's comments :)

Yea for Human Personality; it was one of my favorite classes, although the focus of yours is probably a little different (or a lot different) than what I had at Cal Poly.

Miss you!

Danielle