Tuesday, January 23, 2007

This one is for you Josh

Dear Josh,
You will never read this blog. Never recieve a letter from me. Never get that phone call. You have finally joined our Savior in Heaven after faithfully serving Him for over 20 years. Josh, I don't think i have seen you for at least 4 or 5 years. I haven't been a good friend. But you have stuck with me all this time. Your example of faith and love for the Lord was monumental in my life and I will carry your memory with me forever. One of my earliest memories is with you. I was staying at your house with you and Mike. We were being babysat by some girl, who knows who. And you and Mike changed clothes. You wore his red pajamas and Mike put on your blue ones. And what a laugh we got out of the confusion. Rebekah Wertheim and I used to argue about who would tell you apart better. I never won. But Josh, I remember. I don't remember when you first were diagnosed with cancer, but I remember how skinny you got from all your chemotherapy, and how light your hair was when it fianlly grew back in. And I remember the party we had for you when you finished your chemothearpy. I remember Vera and her frienship with you and her great admiration for your family. I remember hearing about your heart failure. I remember I was at HQ and sitting in the Multipurpose room. I remember going to the bathroom and crying. I knew the Lord had blessed you with the strength to go through this, but I thought it was so unfair. Hadn't you been through enough? I remember hearing about your family. How you worried about your parents and Mike, and they in return worried about you. And it impressed me so deeply, the love your family radiated for each other and for the Lord. I remember. I remember how after so many years of your skinniness, you came back to Ingathering chubby from the medication they gave you for your heart. I remember a letter I wrote and never sent to the family of the girl whose heart you were given, thanking them. I remember your faith Josh. I remember you. I have told others about you and your family. You will never know what encouragement you have been to others, who you won't meet here in this life. But Josh, your love for the Lord was, is, and always will be obvious to me. You radiated it. And I thank you for that. I remember you Josh, and I always will.

"Only be strong and very courageous, be careful to do according to all the law which Moses My servant commanded you, do not turn from it to the right or to the left, so that you may have success wherever you go." Joshua 1:7

To Joshua Rubin, died this week


Rach said...

I love you babe....you are always in my prayers. I'm so happy I got to hear your voice the other night.

Anonymous said...

I do remember you telling me about him a long time ago. I'm praying for his family and you too. Love you, Danielle